Long Time

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Do you guys ever get so busy you forget how to slow down....? Yeah? Well, that's been me for the past month it seems. I have been so go-go-go that I physically cannot sit still anymore. Okay, so maybe I'm just being over dramatic, but that's besides the point! Between work and school and trying to figure out how to "Adult," life has been insane, but still wonderful. Lately I've been feeling this need to travel and so I have decided that I am going to go on a trip. I don't know when or even where, but it's happening... even if I have to go by myself.

Another thing that I have been dealing with is simply letting go of the past and not letting others decisions affect or bother me anymore... because at the end of the day those decisions aren't even affecting me, so what's the point of wasting time that can be spent elsewhere? There isn't one. When you realize that you have removed certain people from your life for a reason whether that be toxicity, lack of effort, unreliable, they could have just simply changed to the point to where you just could not be around them, whatever the reason may be... you removed them from your life to better yourself, so there is no need to worry about what they do anymore. I read something the other day that said "Even if you cannot change all the people around you, you can change the people you choose to be around. Life is too short to waste your time on people who don't respect, appreciate, and value you. Spend your life with people who make you smile, laugh, and feel loved," and It could not have been more right.

Something that I am trying to do more of is appreciate. Appreciation is something that I feel people as a whole forget to do. Taking the time to sit back and truly appreciate what God has done for you. The prayers you never realized He had answered until years later, the times when you had asked for help, tears rolling down your face, and received it, the many many people in your life that LOVE you, something even as simple as health needs to be appreciated because everything can be taken away so quickly. Appreciation is something that I have really been trying to show because I truly do love every single person The Lord has placed into my life so much and I want them to know that.

I was recently baptized and I had never felt a peace like that before... other than when I was saved. I knew, then, that everything was going to be alright regardless of what was going on in my life. And of course I knew that I was going to fall short some days, but I needed to try. My goal is to always try my hardest to do things and surround myself with people that make me feel like I did then. Peaceful, happy, excited... all of those in one, and as of late that's exactly what I have surrounded myself with. People and things that make me feel that way. People that make me laugh so hard my stomach hurts and tears roll from my eyes, and I just want to encourage others to surround themselves with things and people that make them feel excited and peaceful and happy all in one. Surround yourself with belly laughs and happy tears. They make the best memories!

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That's all for now... Stay Radiant!